Blog 12/30/09
Whew, survived Christmas, and New Year is almost here. Have forgotten to take my supplements several days over the last two weeks, and man, have I noticed when I do! Makes me understand that they are doing more than I realize.
So, I will get personal and confess to a touchy subject this week. Touchy because no one should do this without medical supervision and a plan to actually “wean”. Don’t do it just cause I said I did!
Even though I said I wasn’t going to do it, I chose to stop taking my antidepressant medication about two weeks ago. I had been forgetting to take them just like the supplements several days a week, so the weaning process wasn’t too bad. No migraines or severe depressions. However, I should have known better than to do this just before a major holiday. I ended up getting a stomach flu last week, and Christmas day was not the best I’ve had in my lifetime. All I could think on Sunday was, “Why am I taking all these pills in place of one antidepressant, again? I’m sick, tired, and depressed. Maybe I should just admit I can’t fix it.”
Then, I woke up Monday morning feeling a nice burst of energy, and a renewed passion to follow through with my antidepressant break and “brain restructuring.” Decided I have got to get off my butt and exercise at least two days per week. It is imperative to my health. My daughter wants to join a gym, so I’m going tonight to start our membership. (Although, I’m looking forward to the sauna more than the Zumba). But, by gosh, I’m going to do this. I turn 40 next November, and I have no intention of feeling like I’m 90 when I get there!!!! (No offense to those of you who are 90, running marathons, and could kick my butt in Zumba class).
So, those of you who are following a similar path as me, just remember that nothing creates an instant fix to this fatigue and mental cloudiness. (Unless, I win the lotto and can afford to move to my retreat in Hawaii and do yoga three times a day. That would be an instant fix!) There are good days, and bad days. But, once you’ve put in one or two months of your time and money, why go back and waste all that effort? I have to keep reminding myself this is a journey. I chose to step on the path, and I have to keep going to see where it goes. If I gain back my mind, body, and soul along the way, then it is all worthwhile. So, I say to myself (and all of you) make some resolutions that you can really conquer. Forgive yourself ahead of time for messing up a few times along the conquest so you can get back on track without giving up, and plan to sit back this time next year to smile at how much progress you’ve made. I promise, it can be done.
Happy New Year, Everyone!
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